Sunday, February 10, 2013

Grown and Sexy, Law of Attraction and e-Readers


So this year I have decided to step it up. My theme for this year is Grown and Sexy! (Like both of them but mainly the one on the left. She's my icon for this year.)

Every change that I am making in my life is about being grown and sexy, and rightfully so, I am going to be 30 this year. :D I know some people are starting to feel old but I am actually just starting to feel like a woman and I am quite excited about it and I want to embrace it for at least the next 30 years before I start to consider myself "getting old". 


So as a part of that, one of the things on my list of goals is changing my attitude to one like Yoda spoke about in Star Wars which is, "Size matters not". My mom pointed out something to me; she reminded me that Yoda told Luke that he failed because he Could Not Believe It. This is a very important thing. It's not about the fact that he tried and couldn't do it; it's not about the fact that he had the wrong mentality; it's about the fact that he had the coach right there and he saw the coach do it right in front of him and with all of that evidence, he still Could Not Believe that it could Even be Done! 

I am working on getting into the depths of my subconscious to make sure that I know that I know that I can do it. I am working on KNOWING that there is no difference... no matter what the size, price or distance. I decide what my life will entail and the money comes to make that happen, not the other way around. Now, how does all of this connect to an e-reader? If you would have asked me last year if I could manifest $500 to spend on e-readers for me and my love, I would have told you..."I don't know. I'll try". 

Now I am here to tell you, "Yes. I can". This is 2013 and it is my year and I am doing it big and grown and sexy. I am not letting the size or price of anything stand in my way. 
I decided that if I got an e-reader I would do a lot more reading (because a lot of my books are on PDF). Then I decided that I wanted to get one for my friend. I did the visualizations, decided that I had it now and when it came time to decide what I wanted, I worked with my inner spirit to get myself over the price hump and really sat down and decided what I Wanted in an E-reader... not what I could afford. I did research, I was prepared and acted as though, not only that the money was going to come, but that I had the e-reader now! After much research, I came to the conclusion that I wanted a basic Kindle Paperwhite and, so far, that's what I'm sticking with. Now I didn't know how I was going to afford that (especially since when I started out, I was only planning on getting one original kindle for $70 and that somehow turned into two Paperwhite 3G's with cases for a whopping $500) but it didn't matter, because I was going to get it. 

So what happened? The money came. I was only expecting to get a little bit but I got A Lot and then...my friend let me know that he already had one..and I decided that the fancy one that I was gonna get didn't really suit my needs, and I went to the store to check out the case and didn't like it and realized that a less expensive case would do just fine and now instead of having to spend the $500 that came, I only have to spend about $150-$200 of it :D hahaha So yeah, it all works out. Grown and Sexy, getting in shape and manifesting what I'd like to have in my life. 


UPDATE:
Yeah, I decided on the Kindle Fire. >:P



Friday, February 8, 2013

When Two Become One By Owen Habel Lwanda and Lola K.


Pacify my trembling
Heart with the
Warmth of you blood.
Lay me to rest in a
Chariot of ecstasy
And take me
High above
The blue sensational
Sky.

Touch my waist
Kiss my lips
Lick my neck
Arouse my cravings
Then
Scream as I sigh
Take me to paradise

My hands shaking, yet eager to touch
Pulling, pushing, squeezing for life
Pain and pleasure dance gracefully together
As wetness drips from our lips

Hearts fully opened
There is no room for fear
Too enraptured in the now
To submerged in the here

Receive my sweetness
With open arms
Then interlock me
From within
Drop the power
Of my strength....
Drop the power
Of my strength

And then take me to ecstasy again…


Saturday, February 2, 2013

Twin Poems- Lola K and Owen Habel

LaShawn Tolson (a writer in our upcoming magazine) told me that she was doing a collaboration with the very talented poet: Owen Habel Lwanda. I had been thinking about a topic for a poem myself and decided that I should like to do something similar with Owen. I wanted to write a poem about heart break, using cupid's arrow. What is wonderful about having decided to do this collaboration is that Owen had the courage to say what I wouldn't say, and that was how sometimes when you are in a relationship with someone, you can be really hard on yourself and feel like everything you do is "stupid". I am constantly feeling embarrassed in my present relationship. So without further ado, here are the twin poems that we wrote.

I will start with his, because the feelings he has expressed, are what led to the feelings expressed in mine...

LOVE AND ITS MAGIC
By OWEN HABEL LWANDA

The wounds of
His broken heart
Priented scars on
His soul.
Love to him sounds
Foul, filth...
And is full of
Grumbling growls

He bought
A bunch of roses
And found his hands
Handing them over
To her...
He felt stupid

He thought
His heart had bruises.
But found it
Falling in love
With her...
He felt stupid

He promised
Never to love
Again
But her presence
Deepens the intake
Of his breath...
He feels stupid

But all that is Cupid
That stings in a way
that's candid
She makes him
Feel splendid
But he after words
feel stupid again
Love is laughing at him


And here is mine: 



Love lies bleeding-By Lola K.

Heart dripping.
Love spilling.
Smiles pour abundantly from my face.
Constantly blissful.
Everything feels like sex- painful yet euphoric.
And if I could just get over my own head
I could enjoy you
If I could just get out of my head
Then maybe I wouldn't cut the three cords.
I wonder if I’m addicted to you.
They say Cupid has hit me in the most sensitive spot
Feels like heaven and ambrosia
I don’t realize what’s happening.
I run into you
Linger in you
I trust in you
I sleep in you, soundly, like a baby
Then suddenly
There is a shock that jerks me from my slumber
A sharp pain pierces through my chest as reality hits.
I look down
My heart is bleeding.
Cupid has hit me
And the arrow is real.
And it’s killing me
My love lies bleeding on the ground
From my wrists and my heart.
And I die
Slowly
And quietly.